Sunday, December 14, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Update
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Surprised by joy
This morning I found myself inconveniently stuck between appointments. I dropped Joshua off for school and soon I will be heading to the doctor, but the time between is just enough that it doesn’t make since to go home or directly to the appointment. I decided to go to Starbucks, do a devotional and work on a draft for networking with Christian therapists. As I sat working on Biblical references for some of the ideas I was trying to develop as they relate to caring for disabled children, unexpected joy overcame me. You might be surprised to hear that God used David Bowie in my life this morning, but God is surprising and He can use anyone and anything for His purposes and His glory. I had just read the verse in Revelation, “Behold I am making all things new…(21:5)” Then I found 1 John 2:17 and read of the reminder that this world is passing away, but that the things of God are eternal. At that moment, in the coffee shop, the song “Little Drummer Boy” by Bing Crosby and David Bowie began playing. Now I love “Little Drummer Boy,” but I’ve never really cared for that version because I didn’t like Bowie’s lines which always seemed to be an intrusion to an otherwise great song. This morning was different, though. When Bowie began singing “peace on earth” and men living in peace, the goodness of God just overwhelmed me and woke me up from the dullness of the last several days. Just a little footnote: The reason I love “Little Drummer Boy” so much is that it is a picture of a humble boy giving to God out of his poverty and God smiles on him. Lest you think I speak of works righteousness, the boy in the song plays to honor his King. He is given a place at the side of Jesus before he ever strikes the drum. I want to live before God in the same way and I want to “play my best for Him….pa-rum-pa-pum-pum.” Here's my favorite version (Jars of Clay):
Monday, December 1, 2008
The Sunday Paper
Click on the title to go to the Ledger's website. Our family was featured on the front page of the Sunday paper. Now that a lot of people know what we are doing, please join me in praying that this new exposure will help us find new partners and increased support.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
our story on ledger-enquirer.com (click here)
Monday, November 24, 2008
Goodtimes..ain't we lucky we got'em!
Over the past month or so we've been able to enjoy some good quality time with family and friends. Here's a sampling.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Recent activity
Another wonderful thing happened yesterday. My former colleagues in the school system had a going away party for me yesterday. It was a very nice gesture. I was especially touched by a stack of notes I was given. It was a collection of encouraging and personal comments. I sat in my car in the parking lot reading the comments and though I am a man, I can admit to getting misty eyed. Thanks everybody. It means so much. Another thing they did was make donations to our ministry in the form of financial contributions and toys for use in the clinic. Lately I am spending a lot of time being thankful for the many blessings God has given me and my family - generous and loving friends and family, gifts that have encouraged good wholesome family time, and opportunities to share our ministry plans through mass media. Just feeling very grateful!
Monday, November 17, 2008
Support Account Update
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Newspaper interview
Friday, November 7, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Election day
Give me your heart my son
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Doldrums
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Friday, October 31, 2008
Followers gadget
Thursday, October 23, 2008
I have been told by friends to resist the urge to always talk about ministry in flowery terms and to be "real" when giving updates, so here's a dose of reality. I finished working with the school system last week. When I left, none of my collegues were around and because our kids were sick, Susan and I didn't go out as we had planned to mark this significant passing. It surprised me to find that my anticlimactic departure sent me into a minor depression. By Sunday afternoon, Susan sent me out to spend some time alone. I was instructed to return more joyful. I drifted around town and found the most satisfaction sitting on a bench with the sun on my back. It was a geat time of reflection and prayer. I realized during that time that I was not what I desire to be. I've tried to take a stance that in my work I wouldn't worry what people thought of me. I would just commit to doing a good job and let people think what they want. I had to acknowledge that my depression was primarily related to the long standing thorn in my flesh - people pleasing. No one was there, no one celebrated my efforts. It just ended.
I am excited about the road ahead, but also humbled by this situation and others like it. When I look to my own accomplishments, or in this case my desire to be recognized for them, they are never sufficient. They will always in the end disappoint. My savior is all-sufficient and ultimately satisfying.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Visit from our team leader
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Reflection and looking ahead
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
In the Midst of Change
Please continue to pray for our family. While this has been an exciting time, the frequent changes have added stress. Our kids seem to be handling it well, but they need your prayers. Our time in New York really highlighted for us the need to have regular family devotions and so we have fought for that time. Being still before God has become an important part of our days. We need it always, especially when life is moving fast.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Joshua became a Snapple addict while in NY. He has since gone cold turkey and kicked the habit.
We were in class most days at Evangel Church. Guest lecturers were brought in through out the month and really challenged our assumptions about missions. The speaker here is Mark Reynolds from Redeemer. He shared with us the Redeemer model for planting churches in NYC.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Greg's Pre-field Reflection Paper
Reflection Paper
How would I describe my experience in NYC at pre-field training? Much of the time it felt like living on the edge of chaos. Navigating the subway system with my entire family was quite an adventure. We rushed around and made split second decisions to jump on and off of trains. We never lost a child in the process, but we did head off in the wrong direction more than once. After a while it occurred to me that making a good decision (even if made slowly) was better than a quick, bad decision. We never got the hang of what was the most efficient, energy saving approach. To bring strollers or not to bring them – that was the question. Strollers were great for long distance walking, but not so great for carrying a sleeping boy up two flights of stairs. Either way, Eli and Paul were going to get a good long nap in the subway and be up late. What’s the take-away? Organizing our days and activities should include consideration of the impact on our kids, as well as family health and rest.
How were we supposed to support the ministry of New Life Fellowship? They wanted us to help with VBS. Great! What did they want me to do specifically? Oh….manage the behavior of a child with special needs. Not a problem – I do that all the time. “Here’s your kid,” I was told. I thought, “He doesn’t seem so difficult.”
“Wait – change of plans. We need you to take care of Keanu.” I heard he was out of control on Monday, but he hadn’t been back until Thursday – the day we arrived. Things went well for the first 15 minutes or so. Then, I think Keanu figured out what was going on and why I was there. I hung out with him and did what I knew to do, but I didn’t feel very successful. Still, I kept hearing how much better he was doing – that he seemed like a different child. I couldn’t keep him on schedule and though it seemed we made a connection, he was very clear about what he thought of me. He said, “I hate you….You’re not my friend.” To prep him for the next day, I planted a seed of expectation that he would participate in all of his activities. His response, “I don’t want you to come back tomorrow.” But I did, and so did he. Susan and I sat watching him interact with the music director, Rachel. He really had quite an affinity for her and seemed to love music. We speculated on why he might be so attracted to Rachel. Whatever it was, this presented an opportunity. I got a chance to speak with Rachel before the start of Friday’s activities. She was thrilled to hear our observations and she said she would be glad to let Keanu assist her during practice. What a change! This kid was in his element, anticipating Rachel’s needs, checking mics and even making suggestions. The take-away? We have to love the people we serve, even when they don’t appreciate us because God is at work and happy to use us for His purposes. During our last week of work with New Life, Linda and Myra (from New Life) invited me to share strategies for working with children who have special needs. It was a very good conversation. They asked a lot of good questions. We talked about reaching the heart and not just managing behaviors. I complemented them on the community atmosphere that has been cultivated at their church and told them that it was my opinion that a grace-centered community is a great asset (maybe the best) in reaching this population and their families. I’ve given Linda my contact information and hope to continue collaborating with New Life as they seek to serve this very special group. In preparation for the meeting I wrote up a rough draft of my philosophy for caring for children in the church who have disabilities. Myra made a copy of that draft, which was a good summary of the issues we discussed. Take away? This happened naturally, but on reflection, my best advice was based on weeks of observation of the life of this church community. I’ve spoken to people about touching the hearts of disabled children in a one on one context, but a piece of the puzzle I had been missing (without even knowing it) was the impact of Christian community. So the take away? Observe and never stop being a learner. Also, I need other members of the body of Christ, even when I come in as the so-called “trained expert.” I was taught new things that I will carry with me and hopefully use to benefit families in other places, such as Bulgaria.
“Know yourself and know God….” Understanding how I think and interact within groups has been a valuable process. For one, the ongoing process of understanding my tendencies – both strengths and weaknesses will help me to work on deficit areas and benefit others as I better understand my strengths. Also, it serves as a caution against judging the motives of others who may simply have a different way of processing information and engaging issues.
The line-up of guest presenters were at the same time both challenging and encouraging. The first of the speakers was Mark Reynolds. He talked to us about Redeemer’s church planting model. I remember him talking about getting behind other church planting efforts, helping others who have shared goals to have a greater impact. He presented the image of being a large platform from which others could launch out into the city. Another thing that Mark said was a bit shocking. He shared his experience of being a missionary on a team, but wanting to limit bonding with team members. The point he was making was a good one. It is not our purpose to go overseas and become a closed community of missionaries. We are being sent out to reach the people of that particular country. However, it seems to me that bonding with one’s team is healthy and a commitment to fellow believers should not be neglected.
Having been a poor high school Spanish student, I came away from the time with Dwight Gradin and Misha Marlowe excited and confident about my potential as a language learner. After a very short period of time, I was able to follow commands in the Ja language to sit down, put my pencil on my head, and pop myself firmly on the forehead. Before Dwight showed up, I had never even heard of the Ja language. I eagerly anticipate using Dwight’s approach to learn Bulgarian.
There were two big take-aways that I got from Pete Scazzero. “Be still and know that I am God” is a command. Sabbath rest is important. Pete is the pastor of New Life Fellowship so I had the opportunity to hear him preach the first Sunday we were in New York. During his sermon, he introduced the concept of “daily office.” It is a simple strategy for short moments of “re-centering” and resting in God’s presence done 2-3 times per day. Susan and I began doing a daily office independently and a modified version with our family. Finding a few minutes of solitude with God (even on the subway) made a world of difference in my ability to care for those around me. I have come to see it as a tool for equipping me to face spiritual warfare on a daily basis. The other big take-away from Pete was to take seriously the responsibility to minister out of a healthy marriage and healthy family relationships rather than neglecting family for ministry. I’m not sure if Pete said it, but I heard more than once during the month that family is the first mission field.
John Leonard’s challenge to share the gospel in context and to do so boldly really resonated with me. I want to be more like that. I have had opportunities to engage people from around the world through the practice of cultural interviews. I see in myself a hesitancy to dig deep and ask probing questions, but I was encouraged by John’s stories of boldly, but compassionately entering into the lives of strangers. I like what he said about being a pastor to the entire community, not just a church. He was so challenging – Disciple nonbelievers and evangelize Christians? I think I agree, but it really turned my thinking upside down. It will take time for this to sink in and impact the way I engage others.
Barbara Jones came and talked with us and shared a video about child abuse, particularly sexual abuse. We had a discussion about our responsibilities in protecting children and how to protect ourselves against false accusations. Advanced training is available for those who are interested in becoming advocates. Susan and I are considering volunteering for such training because of the nature of the work in which we plan to be involved while in Bulgaria.
Then there was Bill Yarbrough challenging our assumptions about church planting and reviewing “emotionally healthy spirituality.” If a subject is covered twice and emphasized so strongly, it tells me that this is something to which I really need to invest time and energy. Susan and I bought the book and study guide when Pete Scazzero was with us and we each without consulting the others included studying Emotionally Healthy Spirituality on our learning contracts. Liz suggested we study it together. Bill also pressed the point with the group and then with me personally to always be a learner and enter a culture with humility. I think it was Bill who used the example of Peter and Cornelius to show that God works beyond our narrow assumptions about Him. Bill said we should use the words peterine, apostilicity, and ecstatic in our reflection papers and so I have.
Initially I was a bit nervous about the cross cultural interviews that we were to conduct, but this became one of my favorite activities while at pre-field. I don’t think any of the interviews I conducted lasted long enough and I didn’t probe as deeply as I could have, but I loved getting to know complete strangers and finding out about their lives. This is a big deal because I am not normally one who engages people I don’t know, especially if I don’t think we have anything in common. I knew that this was a requirement so I jumped in with both feet and began talking with people whenever and wherever an opportunity arose. Being given questions to ask was extremely helpful. I was surprised at how many people I found who wanted to talk. Most of the conversations began very naturally. The first opportunity came when Joshua and I got lost walking through the city and a couple of ladies from Ghana helped us find our way back to the subway. We just started talking about why we were in NYC and one of the ladies shared that she had been here for three years and the conversation went on from there. Another time an African man stood up on the subway to give my kids his seat. There we were holding onto the same pole standing face to face. It would have been awkward not to have a conversation. His name was Sinko. My conversation with him has stayed with me. Though the time was very brief, we connected. I told him I would be praying for him and I have.
I have found ethnographic observation to be a valuable tool for beginning to understand unfamiliar cultures and understanding their values and customs. I have made assumptions from observations conducted in my neighborhood in Washington Heights that Dominos is a favorite social activity within the Dominican culture, and that it is a man’s game. I also found the people in the neighborhood to be very social. Spanish was spoken almost to the exclusion of any other language unless I or other members of my family were being addressed. Should I engage in ministry to Dominican people I would need to learn their language and figure out how to play dominos, including understanding the social structure involved in who sits at the table versus who stands around and watches. Of course, there would be many other things I would need to learn about the culture as well and so ethnographic research would need to be an ongoing practice and not something I would put away after I have been in the culture for a few months.
Another field experience involved leading the team assigned to New Life. Liz was our mentor and encouraged us to discuss who should lead our group or if we just wanted to let a leader emerge naturally. We talked about sharing leadership depending on the issues involved. I said that I saw one immediate need for leadership and that was organizing our team meetings. I was willing to do it and was very quickly agreed upon as the person who would take on that role. With input from Liz, I came up with the agenda for each meeting and guided the discussions. This was a familiar role for me, but because of the limited scope of our work and our time, I didn’t find it particularly difficult. This is probably because other members eagerly followed through on our original agreement to share leadership. David took responsibility for organizing an activity at New Life where we put together craft activities for Sunday school classes. The biggest issue I could see emerging if we were to do this for an extended period of time, would be to more clearly define the roles of our interns. In reflection, it would have been a really good idea to assemble everyone, appoint a leader and discuss what each team member saw as his or her role. I was unclear what interns were supposed to be doing. Were they responsible to us? Did they have their own agenda? We debriefed the team experience in our last meeting and heard from Cara, Michael, and Ethan that they would have liked the opportunity to do some of the things we were doing such as cultural interviews and ethnographies. They also felt that their roles with New Life were ambiguous. We all felt that way. If we were starting again, I would favor a more proactive approach in defining our relationship with the church. They seemed unsure of where to plug us in. Perhaps it would have helped if we told them some of the things we could do. I think it was Cara who said she could have asked about singing in the choir.
I know that I did more on my learning contract than I was supposed to do. I didn’t follow directions well, but I am glad to have spent so much time on it and I am grateful to Liz for her patience in looking through it and spending an excessive amount of time sitting with me in the park going over it. Identifying weaknesses is never a fun process, but coming up with goals for improving and then putting together a realistic list of strategies and resources is encouraging. I am excited about the books Liz recommended. I think I am going to enjoy this process.
I intend to further explore the process of developing a rule of life. I like the concept of being intentional about how I live my life. My favorite from the handout was “Savor the sacred in all I do – at work, rest, or play.” One that I have been convicted about in my time in New York, and thus one that I intend to include as I work through this process is, “Remember the poor and marginalized.” I think of Bill Yarbrough’s emphasis on reaching out to and caring for the poor and how that is a sign of healthy ministry.
I almost forgot to mention culture shock. I am not sure it ever hit Eli or Paul, but I remember one day in particular when Joshua just fell apart. We didn’t know what to make of it until a few days later when culture shock was discussed in class. Susan described hitting a wall and wanting to go home. I remember walking to New Life and began complaining to Joshua. He showed a lot of compassion, but I told him I was having a hard time dealing with the reality of our situation and that I was just going to have to deal with it. It seemed at that time that all that could go wrong would go wrong. I was thinking about checking out emotionally from this process. God really worked on me during that day’s worship service and reminded me that I was in His triumphal procession. It seems that the three of us all had a short bout of culture shock. It is good that we experienced it during pre-field because it will help us to recognize what is happening when it reemerges in Bulgaria.
I am very grateful for this learning experience. I am excited about getting to Bulgaria and employing ethnographic observations and cultural interviews to begin understanding the people there. The combination of challenging teaching, fieldwork, and mentor support has really helped to stretch me beyond my previously perceived capacity. One last take-away. The busyness of ministry cannot be allowed to drown out time with God – devotions, prayer, Bible study. We are in a spiritual war. God would not have us march to the frontlines without armor and without weapons.

